Don’t cry, the ups seems gone!
Don’t cry, this mad world still can be one!
And all these tears that blind and cloud your days
Will fall to the ground.
Your bitter fears will fade away.
Hold on, until the journey is end
Hold on, this broken heart to an end.
Reach out, I’ll come and take your hand
One day, your darker seas will lead to promise land.
Don’t cry, I’ve seen this journey through!
Don’t cry, I’ll cross the storms to find you!
And carry you home, to never go away
To rest from the storm
And find the joy to pass you seeding through the pain
Hold on, let it pass you by
Hold on, don’t quit you’ve got Allah by your side.
Your heart is strong enough yo see this mad one won,
Your faith will make the morning come
Your faith will grind the rising sun.
THESE PEOPLE HAVE THE MOST GORGEOUS EYES IN THE WORLD! WHERE DID MY GENE POOL GO WRONG?!
The power to be strong and the wisdom to be wise
All these things will come to you in time
On this journey that you’re making, there’ll be answers that you’ll seek
And it’s you who’ll climb the mountain…It’s you who’ll reach the peak
Though there’s no one there to guide you.. No one to take your hand
But with faith and understanding… You will journey from boy to man
In learning you will teach… And in teaching you will learn
You’ll find your place beside the ones you love
And all the things you dreamed of.. The visions that you saw
Well, the time is drawing near now.. It’s yours to claim it all
Son of Man, look to the sky.. Lift your spirit, set it free
Some day you’ll walk tall with pride.. Son of Man, a man in time you’ll be
All my week ends are characterized by inertia. I think to myself, oh, I could do this! Or I could do that! But instead I spent my days weighting my options and I end up staying at home
I appreciate people who find my lack of faith in humanity endearing; And that, one could argue, defeats the whole purpose. However, I still fine people curious creatures -the way they take interests in the lives of celebrities, equally as theirs. That astonishes me in the same powerful way like a whiff of unexpected cat shi#$ in the morning while walking down the street. I am not proposing as alternative; everyone can do as they please. I’ve made peace with that’s how the world is and that’s how it stays.
I don’t know why I haven’t felt like writing because when I write, I do feel more alive, I guess there’s no reason to seek empathy for happiness. Happiness is an intrinsic reward.
I know that there’s something dire within me that will find its way out sooner or later and I feel like that even when things are alright; like I am my own worst enemy and as if I could jinx things just by being happy. I am afraid to be happy at times when I should be happy in case everything will go to ruins soon if I am. Isn’t that the best it gets though? Enjoying happiness while it lasts? I’m always in a twilight zone with my emotions.. like the over whelming feeling is a cautious grey but there’s sprinkles of emotions few and far in between. I look over at dad laughing and I can feel heath emanating from his smile. I freakin love that you know? I’ve spent so much time alone of my childhood that things like this can really make me feel like life is beautiful and there is hope for love. This is the few moments of happiness that I was speaking of earlier; this is the few profoundly simple moments of happiness that I live for. Recently they have been more frequent than usual, and that’s something to be happy about on its own right; that’s as good as it gets.
Let me tell you something: there is a correlation between high intelligence and depression. Most young adults that are depressed, are only depressed because they are smart, and they are aware that their life is underwhelming. But the status quo in the world is that most people are either dumb or if they know that they are smart they act like a$$holes. If you are neither dumb nor an a$$hole, you will succeed because other people find that positioning is refreshing. So please take comfort, and know that it’s not a question of whether but a question of when happiness comes to you - just have to wait that sucky 5-7 year period out.
Concierto de Aranjuez - John Williams, BBC Proms 2005. Full Concert